LaMeRz to SzeRn

2012-03-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

69': "United are 3-0 up here despite not having got out of second-gear. They have been outplayed for long-periods."

Lesson learnt: There might have been times where we feel outplayed, outwitted, where we feel as though we are lagging behind, fighting a lost cause. But take heart! Our breakthroughs will come soon! We will still emerge victorious ultimately because Christ has already won it all for us!

75': "Tottenham free-kick floated into the box, but De Gea comes out with authority to punch clear."

Dangers/storms will come lurking, but we already have the authority to punch whatever that's in our way away!

UNITED WE STAND, divided we fall.
Glory glory Man UNITED!!!!
Tottenham 1-3 Manchester United.

Love how God speaks!
Thank you, God!

2012-03-04T01:23:00.003+08:00

I just wanna compliment my bf on being the best bf in the world..
Hey, wait!
He's the only bf I've ever had!
But that's enough.
One's enough, the one who will be with me til the end.
I am blessed! :)
My bf is the best bf in the world!
(Y)

2012-02-29T02:50:00.001+08:00

Two 2-hour discipleships over whatsapp in three days! Is this insane or what? Loving it! :)

Ladies United

2012-02-28T01:31:00.001+08:00

Read Woman of Destiny 400 days ago and took down some notes then. Re-read them just now and this popped at me:

"Fortunately, when you and I feel totally inadequate, we are actually ready! God wants to minister through us HIS power - not ours. Do you have more fear of the Lord, or fear of man?"

That's how I'd been feeling! But after reassurance upon reassurance upon reassurance, I know I am called.

I don't know what I am supposed to do! But God sent help in the form of best friend. Baby steps!

I know I can because the bible says so!

Miss you, soul mate!

To You

2012-02-23T02:19:00.001+08:00

“Lord of the heavens,
Maker of the earth,
Your mercy endures forever.

Blessed Redeemer,
Ancient of days,
We choose to walk in Your ways.

To You, we lift up our hands,
Bowing before You, You’re the great I Am,
Jesus be magnified in this holy place,
We’ll join with the angels to sing of Your praise.

Hallelujah, glory to You alone.”

- “To You”, Andrew Yeo

This song came to me suddenly while I was praying for V. I almost teared. It really spoke of my heart's desire, how much I revere God, how much I want to lavish my praise upon Him, how much I adore Him... Intense stuff. Here I am, on holy ground.

On a side note, I love bathing cos it's the time when God speaks to me so clearly. Was bathing just now when God told me to do so many things.. To share something, to pray for someone, to encourage people... Was still telling God, "God, so many things! I got STM! Am scared I'll forget when I leave this place (bathroom). Remind me again when I get out, kay?" And God really reminded me! How cool can that get?!

My Friend, my Lord, my God.

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Sheesh! Just saw the title of my previous post and I realised that God really sent me! Sent me to share some stuff, to pray for someone, to encourage people (see above). Yea!! Happy!! :)

Here I am, SEND me

2012-02-20T01:41:00.001+08:00

John 3:17
For God did not SEND his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.

In that era, there was a familiar concept in Jewish life that the messenger is like the sender himself.

So when God sent Jesus into this earth, Jesus had that same form of authority and power from above.

Later on, Jesus in turn sent his disciples to make "disciples of all nations" (The Great Commission). And that was AFTER He was resurrected, after He had gone down to Hades to grab the key, after regaining some authority from the enemy in order to have FULL authority.

Being sent implies that the commission, charge, and message are issued by the Sender rather than originating with the one who is sent.

To put it simply, we now have FULL authority from God! Spirit of fear, be gone!

John 2:13-16

2012-02-17T01:33:00.001+08:00

John 2:13-16
14 In the temple he found those who were selling oxen and sheep and pigeons, and the money-changers sitting there.
15 And making a whip of cords, he drove them all out of the temple, with the sheep and oxen. And he poured out the coins of the money-changers and overturned their tables.
16 And he told those who sold the pigeons, "Take these things away; do not make my Father's house a house of trade."

I didn't know that 'temple' (Gk. hieron) denotes the area surrounding the temple, including the Court of the Gentiles, in distinction from the temple building proper (Gk. naos), from which non-Jews were excluded. I always thought it was the 'building' they were referring to.

The merchants and money lenders were making a huge profit cos they were taking advantage of those Jews who had traveled to Jerusalem from afar. This I know.

But why didn't it occur to me earlier that by conducting their businesses in the temple complex, these individuals were disrupting the worship of non-Jewish peeps! This obstructed the very purpose for which the temple was built for. It really didn't occur to me that the non-Jewish peeps were affected, not the whole congregation of temple-goers.

Dang! 茅塞顿开!

John 1:16-17

2012-02-16T02:16:00.001+08:00

John 1:16-17
16 For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace.
17 For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ.

The contrast is not that the Mosaic law was bad and Jesus is good. Rather, both the giving of the law and the coming of Jesus Christ mark decisive events in the history of salvation.

In the law, God graciously revealed his character and righteous requirements to the nation of Israel. Jesus, however, marked the final, definitive revelation of God’s grace and truth.

Wham! That hit me hard! "definitive revelation". Just like the rainbow...

I believe.

2012-02-15T02:23:00.001+08:00

Message for the day:

John 1:12-13
12 But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God,
13 who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.

"Believed in” = pisteuō eis in Greek which implies personal trust.

Believing and trusting go together, hand in hand. It doesn't make sense when one says, "I believe in you", but does not trust this person. Neither does it make sense when one says, "I trust you", but does not believe in his friend.

God really tied this in nicely with sermon, with the part which struck me the most.

How can I say "I believe in God" yet choose not to trust that He'll bring everything to pass, to choose not to trust that he is bigger than my problems?

Lesson learnt:
I believe = I trust, unconditionally. Even when it's silent/doesn't make sense.

After-thoughts...

2012-02-06T18:03:00.008+08:00

It's been a LONG time since I've read such a good article to speak up for the population of nurses in Singapore. The author wrote and I quote,

"The traditional mindset of a public only thinks that nursing job is to clean faeces and urine... The public should be aware that nursing is a more of a profession than just a normal occupation. We save lives and use our instinct, critical thinking, and knowledge to do the best for the patient care."

Why then, are Singaporeans so harsh on nurses?

We silently endure verbal (and sometimes physical) abuse, we are condemned as maids by patients' relatives, we are viewed as merely helpers to the doctors (think: cleaning of excretion and vital signs taking), we have to be weary of perverted patients...

All these and more for that meagre (I refrained from using 'pathetic') amount of monthly pay, exposure to all sorts of occupational hazards (H5N1, SARS etc.), short (and sometimes even 'no') lunch/dinner breaks at weird timings (9am for lunch, anyone? 4pm dinner?), and grueling hours of shift work where many a times we only have 5 hours of sleep before going back to nurse our patients again the next day (think: PM AM PM AM shifts! We leave the place seeing our patients sleeping soundly in bed, and come back the following day to see them still sleeping soundly in bed)...

And I have not included the days where some nurses are not allowed to celebrate special occasions (e.g. New Year, CNY, Christmas) with their loved ones.

Oh! Have I mentioned that we have to be on standby during our off-days just in case the ward recalls us back due to the lack of manpower?

Rest? What rest?

Work-life balance? What's that?

To all the nurses in Singapore, I salute you!

But above that, I hope the public recognises our continuing efforts to provide the best quality care to our patients and be less demanding on us. With that said, please do understand that we are unable to attend to all of your requests ASAP as we have to prioritise our work on hand.

For example, between getting a cup of warm water versus settling some administrative work so that another patient can be sent down for an urgent CT scan, the latter takes the top priority.

Sure enough, I do not deny that there are Singaporeans who have been very understanding thus far. However, many still demean the nursing profession and treat us as 'higher-class maids'.

This perennial problem should be analysed in depth by the relevant authorities (MOH, MOM, SNB, SNA) in order to raise the image of nursing here in Singapore.

Having more institutions offering degree courses is a good start. What about the remuneration and work-life balance? I am sure these are the key issues which are tugging at many nurses' heartstrings.

Lastly, I would like to urge all nurses be united as one. Regardless of race, nationality, religion, language, and institution, we are still nurses here in Singapore. As the adage goes, unity is strength. Only if we are united as one then can we seek to advance the Singapore nursing scene.

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If you are interested, here's the article I read which sparked off this post:

Nurses Advocator: Changing the mindset of a typical Singaporeans towards Nurses

It's a little lengthy with a few grammatical errors here and there. Despite that, I strongly encourage you to read the entire post. Who knows? It might just wreck your perspective of nursing.

2012-01-04T11:26:00.002+08:00

Read V's post 30 minutes ago and I am so so touched! For a guy which a huge sense of ego to say all that, to admit that he is nothing without God, it just means such a huge deal! And to know that he considers us his true friends.. I am just so touched! Awesome stuff! I don't mind getting hit by more frisbees if more lives are gonna be transformed like that! ;)

2012-01-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

"He was still speaking when, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them, and a voice from the cloud said, "This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to him."

- Matthew 17:5

We know so very well this part of the verse "'This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased'". But we always neglect the second part, which is, "'listen to him.'"

It's not about us talking and talking and talking to Him, it's about listening. Listening to His soft, still voice; listening to His heart.

Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening...

心理测验结果...

2012-01-03T03:38:00.001+08:00

你屬於矛盾型的氣質美女。你不易讓人親近，喜歡活在自我世界裏，有自己的想法和不隨大流的生活方式。但又渴望和外面世界溝通，因此，不是太熱情主動嚇到別人，就是冷冰冰的讓人不敢搭話，你算是矛盾到家了。

Seriously! They need to STOP being so spot-on! It's so freaky! They guessed it right 90% of the time! Zzzz...

2011-12-21T01:36:00.001+08:00

Headache!
Heartache!
Holy hands!

2011-12-12T19:23:00.002+08:00

Am I not part of the team?

What happened to honouring my time? =(

2011-12-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

They are back.. safe and sound! =)

2011-11-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

So encouraged after reading V's service feedback. What an amazing transformation! I just have to take time off to type it all out. Haha. V wrote stuff which I told him that day, that very faithful day, where the (i-dislike-you) Frisbee hit my head. For one, like what best friend told me, it was amazing how I had the ability to minister to V after such a traumatic incident, when I was still feeling a little giddy and kinda nauseous. Secondly, I am very sure the words I spoke that day to V wasn't from myself, it was from our almighty God. I told V that there was no such thing as karma... There's only such thing as a test. Stop seeking everything and anything elsewhere because they do NOT help. Continue to hang in there and trust in God. I believe with all my heart (and told V that) this will be such an amazing testimony for to him share in the near future. Ho ho!

Awesome sermon.
Awesome way I was used by God.

Every test can become a testimony.

Awesome God! <3

2011-11-14T16:16:00.001+08:00

17th January 2012, Tuesday, 9.30am

To go or not to go...

I'm torn in the middle.

Letting you go is just so so tough...

2011-11-06T00:19:00.004+08:00

Pastor is truly wise.

Cruise and I have decided to let 262 go. It was a tough decision, no doubt about it. But I know it is for the betterment of Cruise and I. Some things are not meant to be rushed into. It is a lifetime of commitment. Just like how we should be prudent in choosing the right lifetime partner (mine is very good!), we should be prudent in choosing how to spend our money. Live within our means.

Mama was saying she would help us financially.. But I still feel it is inappropriate. After all, I'm going to start a family! I'm going to stand on my two feet (with Cruise, it'll be four) and start my OWN family. It's time I grow up... financially. My mama's money is her money. It's for her to enjoy after working so hard for this family for so many years. I'd be such a loser if I were to take her money.

Circumstantial evidence is so misleading! Thankfully we sought wise council. Very wise indeed.

It was a TOUGH decision, but I know that God has better plans installed for Cruise and I.

"Abraham was a man of faith, wouldn't you be a woman of faith too?"

2011-11-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

You don't need to be in many relationships to know how to love.

262

2011-10-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

Our God is an awesome God!

I can't really remember which (recent) sermon it was, but God spoke and told me that I needed to let everything go, that I should not harbour on to any doubt nor should I feel jealous, disappointed, dejected etc... I promptly did so. Prayer, coupled with the belief that God will only provide me the best and that He has everything in His control, gave me a renewed heart in this aspect of my life.

Today, I saw this:

"Your queue position for a 3-room Standard / 4-room flat in _____ is 262. We will provide you with the flat selection details such as the flat list when we invite you to select a flat in Nov / Dec 2011. Whether you will be able to select a flat would depend on the availability of flats and ethnic quota when your turn is due. Hence, please check on the availability of flats and ethnic quota before coming down for your selection appointment. "
I couldn't believe it was real! I read and re-read (haha! qualitative trustworthiness!) the statement that was on the screen. Suddenly, it sank in and I ran to tell Daddy who was in the living room. My extremities were cold and clammy. Finally! Only when I decided to loosen control over this area that I was able to gain full control over it. I learnt it the hard way. But still, I cannot help but feel so so thankful for this gift from my Father in heaven.

This was our only shot at it. One chance and that’s it! We did not have the first-timer chance (it had been forfeited due to us giving up 2 chances in the previous BTOs), neither were we considered under the Married Child Scheme thingy as Cruise’s current house is not within the 2km radius of the flat which we applied for under the Sale of Balance flats exercise. One chance… and we were up fighting against 1376 applicants. Applicants hor! Imagine if ALL the applicants were first-timers and living within the 2km radius of their parents (minus us la)… 1375 x 4 = 5500. 5500 chances! Versus us… ONE chance… and we got Q number 262? Tell me, if that wasn’t God, then who can it be?!

My best friend commented: “Blessed!”
My soul mate commented: “Favoured!”
Indeed! I am favoured; I am blessed.

It is expensive, no doubt. But I am going to apply sermon, the 5th key - I’m going to let money be my slave, and not be a slave to money. After all, I have already applied Key #1, which is to truly forgive and reconcile; decided to Key #2, set aside a hospitality room in my new home (even BEFORE I knew that I had 262); decided to Key #4, be a better girlfriend towards Cruise, I am not gonna let myself fail at the 5th key!

Thank You, Father! Thank You, God! Thank You! Although Man Utd lost so badly, I know that You will let them rise up again. Thank You, God!

As what my best friend and soul mate said, this house has so much more meaning now!

P.S. The three-day-younger-than-me brother promised to shoot my wedding for free! I must document this down in case I forget (which is hightly likely).

2011-10-16T03:31:00.002+08:00

And once again, I find myself worshipping God with this song...

Our God is greater,
Our God is stronger.
Our God is love,
Our God is love.

It feels so so good to be comforted by God.

^,^

2011-09-21T17:09:00.004+08:00

In Sane

2011-09-12T23:55:00.001+08:00

I need to remain sane,
I need to remain sane,
I need to remain sane!!!!

In sane not equals to insane.